Wednesday, May 31, 2017


Tuesday, May 30, 2017

                                                         The path forward. follow through
                                                     Isis and Osiris

Monday, May 29, 2017

 Starseed Awakening Activations
    what is a starseed?               
        definition,  Starseed: A non human soul incarnated in a human body

To find out if you are a starseed or empath please go to;

I've been told by many including family that I was too "sensative" my entire life and I grew up thinking it was a bad thing. I wasn't normal so I tried my best to fit into societies mold of what a"normal" person should be like but I never really felt like I fit in even still.
I found out from my psychologist that indeed I was sensative or an "empath" and she gave me a book about what this all  means. I've always been connected to my mission here on earth while other "starseeds" may not be and they have to awaken from a dormant state into their natural state of being. Here I offer my awakening method for those still dormant. I am not an expert but this is just what I did and what worked for me. If you have people telling you you are "too sensative" you maybe be an empath. If you feel like everything inthis  world is backwards and you have a deep yearning to go home you may be a "starseed". I use this word because we often label things on this earth plane to make them fit into a mold but of course the word starseed doesn't come nearly close enough to describing what you are.

The Awakening
This "method" I came by after many years in therapy so the therapy might have played a role in this. The crucial part in activating gifts such as "visions", "past life dreams" is becoming clear  in your emotional body the therapy did this for me as well as other positive changes I made in my life such as quiting smoking, drinking. 
It has been said before but taking action in making changes is the only way you will be able to accomplish this.

What I did 
Clear out emotions and this is crucial. What do I mean. switch your thinking from negative thoughto psitive thinking. Self love is crucial in this. It's like the law of attraction you put out and attract things to yourself that matches your vibration. If you think you are worth it and deserving of good things you will attract that to your life. Put up positive boundries if you do not do this it will taint your progress. Toxic relationships will sabotage your work.

spend time in nature.

 use fluoride free tooth paste. As empaths we are especially sensative to chemicals in our bodies so try to minimize ALL toxins such as the deodarant and cosmetics you use.

Eat organic

Other ways to clear out emotions

Drawing or painting

Listening to music or any form of creativity.

This way may take you a long time to awaken but anything worth anything doesn't come easily. I am always suspicious in books when I read "fast and easy" , "it will only take minutes out of your day". This is wrong you have to work at it and it may take a while to achieve your goals. It took me at least a year of detoxing my body from chemicals and especially fluoride until the memories of past lives started coming back. I believe that getting rid of fluoride was a key that made way for my awakening and amnesia.


make it hard.

                                             I don't want it any other way. If I can't be with "you"
                                  the way I want it then it's a no go. I just realized this today.
                                  I feel dead inside making this realization today. Alone forever. What does that feel like?

Friday, May 26, 2017

Ellie Goulding - Tessellate (Alt-J Cover)

Your words break down the walls that I put up and I can't help but be yours.

                        it hurts to wait for you, i'm not sure why, maybe my broken heart is yearning for light. or maybe i'm just tired of waiting for love, maybe it's just loneliness and I can't expect someone else to fix me. 
                                                   sending prayers to the angels.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Be patient. It took a long time, it will take a long time.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Sick of the mundane, I want to be magical goddess. Sick of normal dress it's so boring. I don't feel like I'm being authentic anymore.Breaking out of conformity. Sick of wearing the same prescribed clothes by the "fashion" industry. Why do we need an authority to tell us how to dress. We should be able to dress how we wish. R.E.B.E.L

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Storm day

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

                                              My dad used to do this kind of stuff back
                                                 in Romania ,sadly today it is a dying art.

Monday, May 22, 2017

For a brief moment the earth stopped rotating. A shooting star.I know the way it should be. I remember the love you showed me.I DON'T want to forget. Every time I look into his eyes I see you. My gut wrenches. I will lift the fog.


Saturday, May 20, 2017


Wednesday, May 17, 2017

You look at me because I'm different but I look at you and you are all the same.

                                          This is my invisibility cloak. Adorn.

The Sick Rose

By William Blake 
O Rose, thou art sick!
The invisible worm
That flies in the night,
In the howling storm,
Has found out thy bed
Of crimson joy:
And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

A Dream Within A Dream

By Edgar Allan Poe 
Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?


Pride & Prejudice - My Confession

                    The love story I never found.
 It's like waking up from a dream, you remember how it used to be, how you used to be. The memory is crisp and clear, like shooting an arrow at a bull's-eye before all the clouds started settling in. Time has a funny way of blurring things.My heart is at rest for a brief moment.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

                                                       Grounding in Taurus.

                                             Been through this before.
                                              Where it all began.

Saturday, May 13, 2017