Sunday, September 20, 2015

Schizophrenia means living in fear, schizophrenia means anxiety and depression. Schizophrenia means you are not as healthy as you once were.
                                             2011 is the last time I was in therapy. My emotions are a jumbled mess. If I can't focus on actions the least I can do is deal with emotions.

Thursday, September 17, 2015



I feel like I fought hard to keep the doubt away from your mind. To keep you seeing me. But it wasn't enough. Maybe you just didn't want to be seen anymore. Maybe that was your way of ending the relationship. The daggers we threw at each other left wounds. I feel like I just fought a war looking back at the disaster that has ended.

I get moments of peace like today when I see things clearly. I can see the steps I have to take. I want to write beautiful inspiring words..but all that comes out is charcoal. My black soul is strewn across the canvass and it seems so loud when all I want to be heard is a whisper. 

Sunday, September 13, 2015

                                                 Finally found a path without any bumps. I went to a tarot workshop yesterday and things seem to fall into place. I bought my second deck of Oracle cards today, and there is something so therapeutic and otherworldly working with these cards. It's as if the ordinary everyday world just drifts away and we can create whatever we want, our own rules. This mind set is very liberating. The Faery Godmother card in this Oracle deck is what really caught my attention.I like the stardust by the crown of her head, the owl at the top left and the mystery the card seems to emanate.  I'm still learning how to use the Oracle,  but I like how it allows your mind to float into the possibilities of all that we can create and manifest in our lives.

Friday, September 11, 2015

Discipline is choosing between what you want now and what you want most!

You must discipline yourself to achieve anything worthwhile in this life. An undisciplined person never sticks to anything long enough to truly become proficient or to accomplish great things. The undisciplined person will only workout when he or she feels like it or is excited about it. Once the newness and the excitement wears off, they move on to something else.

In order to achieve a high level in your martial arts, you must be disciplined. You must discipline yourself to work on your art daily. You must workout even when you are not in the mood. You must push yourself when you had rather be doing something else.

You must learn to control your mind and force yourself to look at your long-term goals. Where do you want to be this time next month, or next year? You must discipline yourself now in order to be where you want to be later. Those without discipline will sooner or later, envy those with discipline. Discipline yourself to stay the course! Bohdi Sanders 

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Sunday, September 6, 2015

                                                    For the fashion challenged.

Saturday, September 5, 2015