Seems like the only thing I can depend on are the lessons you taught me...reaching out for god has become a series of blocks. It seems like the most important thing yet god does not wish for me to go down this path ??..More than anything I wish to be in your dimension to work on awakening from within to learn. I decided to give up everything just to be with god, including love, but why all the blocks, are these all tests?It's impossible that god does not want me to be with him to awaken to my true potential ..it must be all bad luck.. bad luck in love and bad luck in ascension.
I sold my car a few years back, I just couldn't live with the guilt of owning one while our environment is in such bad shape. I also don't feel the need to prove I am someone by the amount of stuff I acquire. If I need to get somewhere I either walk or take the bus.
Thinking back a couple of years ago I made a promise. Some really difficult things were going on in my life and I asked God for a favor , he granted me that favor but I never repaid him back. I'm writing this as a reminder that I still owe him.